Praise!

I think that most of us look for praise. We all naturally want people to like us and what we have done. I have been doing a play these days and I desire to have my guests and patron goers experience a good show. I want them to "like" my performance. I want them to enjoy our show. But what is interesting to me is that when they do "like" it or me I feel awkward. When I receive "praise" from others I feel awkward about it. I want it, but I don't want it at the same time. It is a very weird experience. I wonder why I am like that? There is part of me that feels unworthy I suppose. A sense of false humility? I don't know. Part of me feels frustrated with myself over this. And then I wonder if I am alone and am the only person that experiences this. Cognitively I know its not true but in experience I still feel alone. These are the little gremlin thoughts that run around my mind when things are quiet.